A Healing Journey

At the ripe old age of 54, I sit here thinking about my life. I think about my childhood, my teens, and early adulthood. I realize that I have never really been my true self. I speak a lot about authenticity, yet I feel I've yet to reach it myself. Astrologically, I'm told this is going to be a great year for me. I feel this will be a year of true healing and emerging from my shell.

I am a constant learner, the eternal student, if you will. I have such a thirst for knowledge and want to learn everything! With these teachings, come growth and expansion. I love to share everything I learn with others although I know I'm limited with whom I can share things with. Well, that was the past. As I lean more into myself, I feel free to express more of who I am. Some may not like it, but hey, I'm not here to please others. (No longer anyway). I believe in healing you have to work through the pain and trauma, not sweep it under the rug. I have learned how your body stores these traumas and creates dis-ease. I am an example of that. From what I've learned, your story may offend some, but it may save some. I'm going for the positive impact it can have on others.

This blog will be a continuation of my journey along the way. Where to begin? I don't really remember a lot of my childhood, but I grew up in an alcoholic abusive household. Like many in the world of Spirituality, I never felt I belonged in my family. I am the middle child and felt it! I think I've always had a spiritual connection. For example my aunt who does ceramics, once gave my sister a beautiful white cat and I got a statue of Mother Mary. Another year my sister got a Miss Piggy and I got an angel (which I still have). I recently asked my mother why this was, and she said "I don't know, it was your personality". She then changed the subject but it left me thinking 'did I go around praying all the time or what?' That will remain a mystery. I went to a Baptist Sunday school only because it was next to our house. I loved going there. Not necessarily for the religious aspect, more so for the connection. I remember the people there being so happy. I loved being around happy people. When I was older I joined their choir. It was a great place to be as it filled my heart so much.

Fast forward to adulthood when I started following pages on Facebook where I learned so much about Angels, Spirit Guides, Spirituality, connecting with like minded women, meditation and eventually Reiki. My lovely Reiki Master first found me on a comment I posted on my friends page. She generously offered me a free session. A few years later, she introduced me to her spiritual mentor whom I now study under and the rest is history. Since then I've tried to learn anything and everything I can.

I am currently a Reiki master, Access Bars practitioner and have been studying Intuitive development and Mediumship. This year I also enrolled in a membership to learn about trauma informed healing. As I am now trying to put myself out there a bit more, I seem to be attracting people that have gone through similar things as myself and it's wonderful! When you commune with people, share stories, and share lessons, you teach each other. Sometimes people don't want or need advice or lectures. They just need a friendly face to listen, empathize and accept. Holding space can sometimes just be sitting together and admiring the ocean at the beach. It can be a silent meditative walk in the forest. It can be talking everything out or whatever makes your heart happy.

So, at the age I am now, I've decided it's time. I will be more open, authentic and expressive. I will share what I have and continue to learn. As I used to joke "my purpose is to bring joy and happiness to everyone I meet". I will now make it my mission.